back in febuary 2004, a brother named myles lumarque challenged me to keep c4 on my msn name for all 4 years. here we are...just starting c3 and my msn name has been the same throughout that WHOLE time. its just a way for me to show that i really do believe in it, and that with God's grace it will happen.
ever since the NLS (national leaders conference) back in february 2004, i've wanted to become a full-time worker. when i went there it was for KFC; and right now im STILL serving KFC. the kids are acutally the main reason that i wanna go full-time. i don't really see myself doing anything else because this is what i want so badly. i know it's a lot of work and a lot of stress, but it's not like im the only one going through it. im also willing to go through that.
im in my 6th year of service in yfc, and i never thought that this time would come. i remmeber back in the day when i would see the top leaders talk about how long they've been in yfc, well now i guess i can talk about that now too? haha. but yeah, like serving for God is one of the hardest things i've done in my life. it put me through so much, from fighting with my parents to the joy that i feel after every event, no matter how hard it was to get through it.
this conference just made me realize a lot of things about myself, what direction i want to take in my life, especially with school. i never really wanted to tell anyone that i'm going back to highschool for another semester because i was afraid that people would look down on me for it. especially since most of the leaders are my age and are all going off to university. i felt like crap every time i got my rejection letters. especially to the school that i wanted to go to most, which was york =( the course that i applied to york for wasn't even what i wanted anymore. what hurt the most was the rejection letter that i got from ryerson for the program that i did want, because i got the letter on the day of my birthday. that day, i just went to church and cried my eyes out. i wasn't really bitter or anything about it, i was just really sad. i called nica up that night, and he just told me that maybe this is what God wants for me. it's hard to accept because it seems like everyone is going to be ahead of me, but i just need to learn and accept that thst's okay too.
for every year that goes by, i just want to become a full-time worker more and more. i know that a lot of people don't really share the same passion as i do, but yeah. there are other ways of serving God other that going full-time. this conference really showed how much God is working through everyone. from the leaders, to the camps, to the mission trips, etc. there are so many new members that i never thought would be in yfc, friends of mine that i've been inviting for so long and are finally a part of yfc, and even family friends that i thought never even knew about yfc. so im really really happy about that.
in terms of my service, there's a pretty big change that's going to happen in kfc. one that i know i will be pretty uncomfortable with, because i've had the same counterpart for so long. actually, my first and ONLY counterpart, LOL! i will miss him, of course, but God has His plans for him and i wish nothing but the best for him. I *heart* you TRISTAN =)
conference was one of the greatest highlights of my summer of course =) next is SHOUT =) woooohooo!!!
soo yeah, aside from the spiritual stuff, im really proud of the NW dance team! we ACTUALLY made it to top 3! i thought it was top 2, but one of the three teams tied with each other i guess? im just so proud of the team. all those practices really paid off, despite all the stress that we went through. IT WAS ALL WORTH IT! congrats as well to all the other dance teams! i know everyone worked hard and put a lot of effort into their dances.
that's it i guess. i hope everyone enjoyed conference! God bless!
ps. elena thanks for all the support throughout the weekend! ahhh i HEART you!
wwwooohhoooo elena's legal!! =) k soo after cotillion practice i threw a "surprise" birthday party for elena at my house =) hehehe...i didn't get to take pictures then...but yeahh after most of the people left, it was just me, elena, nica, oliver, and tristan. soo elena wanted to go to the park, and we did...and this is what happened... (sorry elena...i know i said i wouldn't post up the pictures...but gooosh its ur birthday !!!)
1) List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will. 2) Don't say who they are. 3) Disable comments. 4) Never discuss it again.
Person #1: i've always thought of you as such a burden on my life. for all the years that i've known you, i've let you get to me over and over again. i'm so stupid too, for trying to be nice to you and letting you make a fool out of me. getting mad at you and having this big grudge on you isn't gna get me anywhere. so im not going to let you get to me anymore. you can try to make me look as bad as yuo want. talk as much shit as you want. i'm not gna let you bring me down.
Person #2 : i've always stood up for you, no matter how annoyed people got of you. but lately, you've been acting a lot like a mosquito. you only come to me when you need something. you never include me in anything...you're only close and tight with me when we're together and its only us together. but when other people are around, its like im not even there. thanks for the good things you've done for me though, i really appreciate it. im just going to keep my distance so that i don't end up getting hurt.
Person #3 : thanks for being cool. i've done so much for you, yet you don't realize it. i feel like im on my own in everything that we're supposed to do together. i know that you don't feel that its as important as it really is, and i know that you have other issues to deal with in your life, but please stop using it as an excuse to dump all the work on me.
Person #4 : yes we used to be tight, but not things are different. you've got your own life, and i've got mine. i know that you never always agreed with the decisions i've made and vice versa. although we've both done our separate ways, thanks for always being there when i need someone to talk to.
Person #5 : well well...you are someone that i will just never understand. out of all the times i've tried, it just never works. you always do something to push me away or say something to push me away. you're so fucking stubborn and <b>fake</b>. you say so much shit about other people behind their backs and judge them so much as if you know them so well. have you looked or analyzed yourself lately? you're attitude just drives me up the wall and you're not any better than those that you judge. it's so funny how you always try to twist the situation around to make yourself look like the good one. FYI: you're only putting yourself on a lower level and ruining your image.
Person #6 : thanks for being such a great person. im so glad that nothing's changed about you and about our friendship since everything's happened. i love you so much and i'm always going to be here for you.
Person #7 : gosh you're so fake. you act so nice to me when u talk to me, but behind my back all u do is talk shiitttt
Person #8 : you are my forever soulmate.thanks for seeing me beyond what other people see. especially the shallow ones. you are someone that i will always be able to rely on and im thankful for that. im always here for you, you know that. you know who you are =)
Person #9 : back in the day it was always you and me. no matter what, you and i could always get through it together. but now, things have changed. i know that most of it was my fault and i took total advantage of you. im sorry for that, but im just glad that despite the things i did to you, you're still my friend and you never thought of me as anything less or judged me. thank you and i love you always and forever.
Person #10 : i don't know how much more i can take of you. i've let you take advantage of me waaaaaaaaay too much. i've given so much of myself to you, i've given so much time and effort to help you with the things you need help with but you don't seem to appreciate the things i do for you. i only want the best for you because people don't deserve to go through the things that you're going through. honestly, i've made myself look like a fool to think that you really do care about me and that you really do consider me as a really good friend of yours. i hate the fact that you're always so worried about your image and how you always try to impress everyone. you always use excuses to make urself look like the good one, well just like one of the other people above...you're only making urself look bad. you ACT sooo nice around other people, yet you talk so much shit about them behind their back. im pretty sure you talk shit about me too...but whatever. i don't care anymore. i'm not going to let you bring me down anymore, i've let you bring me down wayyy too much and its just killing me more and more. it hurts to know that you don't appreciate the things i do for you. i've known you for so long and i never thought things would end up this way. maybe i'm taking things too seriously, but can you blame me? but yeah, bottom line, that's it.
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k so tonight was just probably one of the scariest nights i have ever had in a long time. if ur up for a creepy story i suggest u continue reading on...
k soo my dad and i just came from iona (night school) and we were going along winston churchill and i was just looking out the window not really focusing on what im looking at and then i glanced at the guy beside me who was in a glod acura. he was white and had blonde hair and looked like he was around his 40's. i glanced at him again and he looked straight at me and did the sign on of the cross on me (like the way a priest does it on the host during communion) and after that he just sped up.
then it turns out he was turning left onto erin centre blvd. too. he was on the left lane so my add thought that he was turning left so my dad sped up on the right lane and next thing u know he honks at us non-stop! and then he almost hit us when my dad was turning right onto tenth line.
after we turned left to thomas st. the guy drove straight and honked at us for the longest time and then i started to get paranoid and thought that he might follow us...while my dad was parking...i see this car coming up real fast at us...almost about to his us...it was HIM! he honks again and rolls down his window and says, "BUDDY I KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE!!!!!"
honestly what the eff is that?! im like so paranoid right now about what might happen next.
